I had a little existential crisis yesterday. (Okay, that sounds overdramatic. Let’s just call it a “moment of angst.”) I stumbled upon an article at Patheos written by a Presbyterian minister (that’s my denomination) who doesn’t believe in God anymore… but is still pastoring a church.

He seems like a nice man and I bear him no ill will. But his article got me wondering how many others like him there are out there – ministers who have lost their belief in God yet still lead churches. And then I started wondering if a Godless church – a church without the “supernatural” – is really the “liberal church of the future”? (This is what the writers at the Rational Doubt blog on Patheos believe.) Which got me wondering why a church without God would still be considered a “church.” What exactly is a church, anyway?

Then I started scanning the list of blogs on Patheos, and became overwhelmed by the sheer number and diversity of them. Patheos is a website that purports to be “hosting the conversation on faith,” and boy, is it ever a colorful and freewheeling conversation! There are blog portals for Hindus, Buddhists, Pagans, Muslims, Mormons, Evangelicals, Catholics, Orthodox Christians, Progressive Christians, Entertainment Spiritualists (huh?), Feminists (that’s a religion now?), and a whole host of others I’ve never even heard of. One of the largest portals is the Atheist portal. There must be 30 or 40 blogs at that one.

Anyway. All of this is to say that there is a big, boisterous conversation going on over there – and hundreds of little conversations – and while, in theory, that’s a good thing (“something for everybody!”), I don’t find it particularly helpful. I find it daunting. And, yesterday, I found it almost despair-inducing. I was probably just in a mood.

I told my mom on the phone last night:

“I’m so confused. The world is changing so quickly, I don’t even know what to teach my daughter anymore. I try to give her advice to live by, share my hard-earned ‘wisdom’… and the best I can come up with is: ‘be honest, be kind, and always do your homework.’”

Mom said that was probably enough for now. Then she said she had to go make dinner for Dad.

Crisis averted . . . ’til next time.